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(Originally written September 2012)

Frustration,
I don't understand?
How can you make these decisions without me?
What do you mean you don't know?

Sadness,
How did your feelings change so fast?
What happened to us?
How did we get here?

Anger, You are such an asshole.
Why would you go back to her?
How could you do this to me?

Dissapointment,
Why are you giving up?
Why won't you even try to make it work?
What would you parents think?

Tenasity,
Don't you think I deserve a chance?
You made a comittment to me,
Don't you think you should try?

Resignation,
Is there anything I can do to change this?
What more can I say?
What more can I do?

Fear,
Don't make me start over
Don't leave me alone
Don't break my heart

Sorrow,
Why won't you look at me, touch me?
Why am I sleeping alone?
Weren't we supposed to grow old together?

Flux

Bright and dark
Our life together
A flickering reel of images.

A cacophony of weepy pop
Snippets of chorus.

You, hands pressed on either side Of my face
staring, marveling at my beauty.

...we belong, we belong, we belong together.

Me, crying in bed
longing to have you look at me, to let me touch you.

...now your just somebody that I used to know.

You, grabbing me from behind
pressing in hip to hip, curved perfectly together.

...I love the way you love me.

Me, writing a angst ridden poem
late at night to silence my mind.

...I can't make you love me, if you don't.

Us, ...the world's greatest lovers, have turned into strangers.